An act of kindness

Today was a a busy day. I woke up at 0415 because I had to be at work by 0520. Not only was is extremely cold in the morning when I woke up, but to my surprise it also snowed! *brrrrr* So here I am freezing myself trying to get all the snow of my car. After about 5 minutes of cleaning my car I finally begin driving to work. You see, I have a schedule and I know exactly the time I need to get out of my house in order to get to work on time. Because of the snow, I was already 5 minutes behind schedule ^-* But to make matters worse, the roads were still full of snow...so I had to drive extra slow because the roads were really slippery. So I finally get to my destination and am about to enter the gate..............Urgh!!!!! The gate opens at 0600!!!! I had totally forgotten--I usually do. So now I have to drive all the way around to the Main Gate. By the time I got to work it was close to 0600. I was really late. But being the high-speed worker I am I got everything ready as fast as I could. At the end everything turned out okay. The rest of the day was a bit busy because I had to do a few other things and make some calls as well. It was a bit stressful. I think there will be a day when I finally break down and say, "I can't do it no more." Nonetheless, my biggest issue is this headache that I've had for a few weeks now. It hurts!

Anyways, I am going home and I call my sister Alqua. As always, she manages to make me smile for a brief moment. Sometimes I don't think she realizes that she makes my worries go away for a while whenever we speak. Then we had to hang up because she had arrived at her hotel. I was really hungry so I decided to eat out at Applebee's. When it comes to customer service Applebee's always get an A++ compared to Chilli's D-. The whole time I am eating I am on the phone with my friend from Texas (It sucks to eat by yourself, so I figured talking to someone on the phone was as close as I would get to having some company) Anyways, it was finally time for me to leave so I asked for the check. The waiter brings it to me and tell me something about his manager paying for my entree or something...I said sure thanks! I guess I didn't pay attention because when I received my check I only had to pay $3 and some change. I knew there was a mistake and called the gentleman over. He then, once again explained to me that the manager took care of my full entree and all I had to pay was for the Oreo Shake! I was really stunned! I honestly did not know what to say. Was this the first time I had received such a gesture? No it wasn't. I've been really blessed. But do I always get it? No, of course not. Now and days such acts of kindness are rare. It made me feel so happy and it honestly made my day. It was the first time I had smiled throughout the day. Thankfully, I am a believer of paying it forward...and I'll make sure I do so.

One of My Passions: Photography

Love Part I

In my opinion, Love is such a mystery. A mystery that no one will ever solve. Or if you have, please do share your findings. I'm still trying to figure it out, but I do know that love is one of the greatest gifts to man. If we could summarize the Bible, Qur'an, Torah and any other holy book there might exist, in one word it would be love. Growing up, love seemed so unimportant. From what I saw all it did was cause pain and suffering. So what did I do? I made up my mind and decided that I would love no one, but myself. Little did I know that a life by myself would not be easy. Thankfully, I found the greatest love of all in my teenage years. Yes, I found love, the kind of love that will never abandon me. The one an only unconditional love. Who am I talking about? God. Once he came into my life so many things changed. The heart that was solid and cold an ice cube began to feel things. Something I had never felt before. All that anger and hatred for life and people began to fade away. But my biggest gift was when I was blessed with my little brother. When he was born, I was born again. I finally had a reason to live. Nothing else mattered, the things that were happening to me seemed to little compared to the love I felt at that time. As the years passed by, the things around me began to change. No, they did not change by themselves, I had to make those changes. Thankfully, those decision I made opened the doors to so much more.

"Life Goes On"

In my life I can't understand why things don't work out,
As I want, as I need,
Everyday I feel the same, can't fix these things, don't know,
Why they go, from bad to worse.

In my life all I want,
Is to get these things straight,
Straight my life,Which is only one,
To get these problems,
Out of my head right now,
I talk to my friends,
They don't know why,
They can't help me,
I'm alone.

Yea sometimes,
We can not get,
What we wish to have in life,
But we have to understand,
That life goes on,
We have to try.

Desperate is how sometimes I feel, can't control,
All these feelings, inside of me,
Can't understand why not all I want can't come true,
No matter, how hard I try.

You know sometimes,
Things can't work out for you,
But you have to try,
Everyday wake up,
Knowing that you will do,
The best, to make it right, but…

Yea sometimes,
We can not get,
What we wish to have in life,
But we have to understand,
That life goes on,
We have to try.

In my life confused most of the time
I am,Not knowing, how to escape,
But there is something I must get right,
Which is, life is only one.

Most of the time,
Many questions are around,
Which I seem,
The answers not to find,
Yes but I know,
Someday at the end,
The end of my search,I will find.

Yea sometimes,
We can not get,
What we wish to have in life,
But we have to understand,
That life goes on,
We have to try.

--C.A.M--

"Death does not come from the outside..."

Death does not come from outside. Death is within.
Born-grows together with us.
Goes with us to Kindergarten and school.
Learns with us to read and count.
Goes sledging with us, and to the pictures.
Seeks with us the meaning of life.
Tries to make sense with us of Einstein and Wiener
Makes with us our first sexual contacts.
Marries, bears children, quarrels, makes up.
Separates, or perhaps not, with us.
Goes to work, goes to the doctor, goes camping,
to the convalescent home and the sanatorium. Grows old,
sees children married, retired,
looks after grandchildren, grows ill, dies
with us. Let us not fear, then. Our death
will not outlive us.

--JAAN KAPLINSKI--

translated from the Estonian by Hildi Hawkins

"Independant"

I've realize that people these days have come to depend on each other. What are my thoughts on this? I don't agree with it! Like a good friend of mine said, "It's time for, Me Me Me!" I'm not saying forget about the people you love, but focus more on you. Do things for yourself! Don't try to change the world, when you are still screwed up inside. Why? Don't be a hypocrite! So you give money to Save the Children Foundation, but what about the Save Your Own Family Foundation? Have you thought about your familia? Mother, father, sis/bro, cousins…and so on. What about them? Okay so I veered away from the topic of Me Me Me. Am I selfish for wanting to focus simply on me? I don't think so, but of course you are entitled to your own opinion. So let's see what about me? Oh yes! A few months ago I went out with one my co-workers. He began talking about how much he hated his parents for always taking care of him! WTF? Is he nuts?—this was my first thought. He then, however, began to elaborate more on why he hated his parents for taking care of him. It wasn't because he was ungrateful, not at all. If was because he wanted them to live and enjoy life to the fullest. As he continued talking, I realized that he brought up a good point. Parents always think about their children, a normal feeling, but forget about themselves. They always want to make sure they leave us a good and valuable inheritance. I must admit it is a very nice gesture, but do I really want them to live all their life working for me? NO! The answer is No! I want them to enjoy life as well. I want them to LIVE! The best thing that a parent can give a child is Education. What the child does with this is a decision they will have to make.

As for women…don't wait on a man to start having a future! "When I get married, I'm going to do this," When I get married, I'm going to do that" "Blah, Blah, Blah!" Most of the time, not all the time, when you get married you won't do this or that. Not to be sound cruel or anything, but what makes you think you will get married at all? Besides, it would be more beneficial if both of you bring something into the marriage. Most of you have heard of these famous little words "Prenuptial Agreement." Ladies, men are getting smarter with this. So instead of them asking you for a prenuptial agreement, you can ask them for one. They'll be totally surprised!

However, in my opinion, the idea of a prenuptial agreement is a bit absurd. You're getting married for love right? And till death do you part? If you are getting married and at the same time foresee a divorce in the future, you might want to rethink things through.